I should not miss him

(this is angsty and not so much in the style of me...almost didn't get posted at all)

I should not miss him

But I do

I should not want him

We are through

I should not want

To touch and hold

To ask if he heard

What I was not so bold

Enough to say

Did my lips to his skin

Whisper into him

'stay with me'

'touch me'

Did my hands linger to long

Or my eyes give away

All that I am so afraid to say

'I miss you/us'

'I need you'

Can I fix what is broken

Or are the pieces to small

And sharp

So that it doesn't matter at all.

I should not
but I do